Done trying.

Bitch please, I'm here to rant.

I don't know if someone is doing something behind my back or what. I've been trying to ask this person (okay let's just name this person "A") for lunch/dinner since November. No, this person is not a guy. SHE is a woman and is someone's parent.

Maybe I've been thinking too much. I've been stood up for like 5 or 6 times, and I'm not even kidding. Every single time I asked "A" is she's free for lunch/dinner, she'd say that she's busy this weekend, and next weekend and stuff like that, and ended up saying "let's just meet some other time".

Look, I'm not trying to say anything bad about this person. I have so much respect for this woman here. The reason I'm ranting is cause I'm really disappointed.

Maybe she's really busy, but I just need an hour or two to take this person out for lunch. I've been asking week, after week, after week, that I felt like I'm being super annoying. I even stopped for a while, and when I finally asks again, this is what I get.

I never had the chance to be nice to her, and since I've started working, all I wanted to do was to repay her.

Look, I give up. I'm not going to ask her bout' having lunch together. I'm extremely disappointed to a point where I don't even want to try and ask her out. There's is so much of rejection my heart can take. Even if it's just for a lunch.

I mean if your friend were to stood you up, or reject you when you ask them out or something, I'm sure there'll be one day where you're so disappointed that you don't even bother asking them anymore.

I'm not trying to be mean here, in fact, I just want to rant, that's all.

I'm done. I'm done trying.

"A", Happy Chinese New Year. Don't think I'll visit you this year. I really want to give you angpao. I know I'm not related to you in any way, but I have so much respect for you, and you're like my own parent. Your daughter is coming back home for CNY and I don't think she wants to see me around. Nevertheless, thank you for everything.